The better life rests in The Secret

It seems that things in our household have greatly improved.  I am so excited!  Hubby has come out of his depression and low libido.  Leah has imnproved in her attitude and in the time she spends with the children and the rest of us. 

We had a great Christmas with our children and with Sarah.  We also look forward to the New Year.  The New Year brings us the chance for new beginnings and a better life.

Recently, I read the book The Secret and I learned that positive energy breeds positivity while negative energy breeds negativity. What does this mean?

If we think positively, then postive things will occur more in our life than the negative.  If we encumber ourselves with negative thoughts, then negative things will occur more in our lives.  "I think therefore I am." 

It seems to be working in my life. I find myself way less depressed, and I also seem to preceive my life way differently.  It appears that a bounce has returned to my walk and a song in my heart.

I hope you live in the postive and receive joy in your life as well.

Overwhelmed

Many times, I feel very overwhelmed in this poly life.  The more people in a given relationship makes it more overwhelming because as an individual you need to make sure that you carry on a healthy relationship with each of them. It can be extremely difficult especially when one woman can be mostly absent even when present, and she can also act very witchy towards the others in the family including the children.  I find it even more difficult when another woman seems to be negative and depressed most of the time.  How can any one find any positiveness among such negativity? What makes it even worse is when the male in the family majorally stresses out and almost shuts down completely sexually and becomes highly aggressive.

Lately though, things seem to be improving around here.  I am very happy about this to say the least.

Although, I remain cautious and want to tread lightly before agreeing to bring in Sarah as a lifetime partner.  If we cannot get our crap together, we have no business bringing in another person.  This will only be detrimental to her, and I love her to much for this.

What to do when one side of a triad is in ICU?

Leah, Jacob, and I have been part of a triad for 14 years now.  Sarah is our girlfriend which all of us have a relationship with, and we are considering for a lifetime partner. If she joins us as a lifetime partner, we would be a quad. 

However, Leah and I are having deep issues. Our relationship is in the ICU/Intensive Care Unit. We have been here now for many years.  She takes medications for a few diseases. She is also on anti-depressants, and she is bi-polar as well.  I know that the stress of my ex has caused a great amout of stress to each of us.  However, she has changed drastically.  She remains constantly moody and rude even to our children.

She is rude to me on a daily basis, and if she is not rude to me, she absolutely ignores me.  She has called me vicious names when she and I have a disagreement, and I do not call names at all because I feel it is non-productive in an argument or period for that matter.  All it does is cause harm.  In the past, she has actually hit me a few times, but she has not done that in a long time because Jacob told her if she did it again she would need to move out.  However, he would still maintain in a relationship with her.  This made me very uncomfortable because in the past I came out of a very abusive relationship, and it bothers me that Jacob would retain any form of a relationship with some who has abused me.  It feels like betrayal to me, but he says he loves her and knows she is ill and needs our help.

I am at the point that I am no longer willing to put up with her constantly ignoring me or belittling me.  I am not happy in my relationship with her, but I am not willing to lose my relationship with Jacob or Sarah.  I love Leah, but my self-worth is not willing to take crap from her anymore.  If it were only up to me, I would not be with her anymore until she changed, but it is not just my decision.

I feel at a loss as what to do.  I have actally thought about ignoring her as well and not engaging in any form of conversation with her.  This upset Jacob when I told him of my plans because he feels that it would only cause more harm than good.  Why must I constantly think about her well-being at the expense of my own???  Any thoughts?